rêves d'une âme perdue: inclined confusion

29 February 2012

8.0 - Old Habits

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The past week has been difficult. I found it challenging to focus.

Get back to it!

21 February 2012

7.0 - Patience

0 comments Posted by nanabuuui at 11:58 PM

I reflected on many virtues today. Patience occupied most of my thoughts.

Challenges are meant to test patience. How much can one endure before he or she gives up? What propels one to continue onwards with a challenge?

I continue to ask myself these questions.

I know my weakness. Patience brings me the most despair. I have been trying to practice delaying gratification for a lot of things. And I will continue with the process until I feel like I have established a firm tolerance with all things relating to patience.

Alas, this is but a short reflection for the day.

I indulged my ears with EDM today. 'Titanium' was on repeat, the wholeee time. I find it absolutely amazing how the same song gives off completely different vibes. I was tearing from the lyrics at one point. Sigh.

Alesso Remix

Acoustic Cover

20 February 2012

6.0 - Photo Recap Of The Week

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Starting from Sunday, since I did not post many photos this week:

the lovely com tam feast from mother :]

Red velvet and fruits basket cake at Freeport Bakery with Christina.

the heartwarming card from Minhchau

outing with Amanda and uncle. BJ's for happy hour, right after we had McD's

Cafe Rolle feast with Andy

Ruby Skye Mardi Gras celebration, featuring R3hab.

18 February 2012

4.0 - Over the Bridge

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I am stuck in traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge right now. Writing an entry here should suffice to make my daily quota of writing, although the content may be lacked.

Only a few days have passed, yet I feel like I have lost some of the feelings I had previously. This thought just reinforces the importance of writing every day.

Thursday, I had a nice conversation with my uncle and cousin during dinner. The opinions we all shared has helped contribute to my overall view of filial responsibilities, yet the strength of those feelings have decreased by now. They have died down, just a bit.

Friday was very nice. The day was full of pleasant surprises and absolute love from the friends. Andy took me to lunch at Cafe Rolle. We took photos with the chef and manager. It was a lovely and delicious lunch. And I found a new favorite white wine!

Friday night was spent at Burgers&Brew with Andy and Michelle. We frequented a few bars downtown. The feeling is different now. I certainly didn't see or feel the same as I did when I first turned 21. Everything has a different vibe.

Elaborations to come. The process of growing up still confuses me. Ah.

16 February 2012

3.0 - Amazing Track - the New Happy Song

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Steerner & Tjernberg Ft. Beerg & Haal - Names

I am floating to this song.

2.5 - Refreshment

0 comments Posted by nanabuuui at 1:22 AM

Today was such an uplifting day. It was a good day.

I definitely needed the refreshment.

The dullest days always transform into best ones when you least expect it. When old and dear friends grace your life, for even the briefest moment, your breath just stops. You exhale after the encounter. You find the ability to let go of the negativity swirling in your mind. You let go of the weights which have kept you down. You refuse to let them taunt you anymore. You discover the strength you have been desperately seeking to simply be you again.

heartfelt talks and special peanut candies!

It has been a long time since I have been able to look beyond the darkness surrounding me. My moods have been terrible over the past few weeks.

I attribute the recent change to my dearest friends. I really do not have many anymore.

Minhchau calls these people her inner circle. I cannot think of another way to term to describe them.

You meet different people throughout life. They fit into different categories: casual acquaintances, coworkers, classmates, housemates, annoying drunk people, etc. There are the ones you spend time with because you adore them, but they cannot understand you. You know this and you keep yourself separated from them. You stay distanced. Then, there are the ones who see your heart. They peer into your soul. They completely connect to your thoughts and inner-most feelings. They completely understand your sentiments. They leave you with a profound feeling of awe for how much someone can just get it.

Christina has been trying to save me from of my depression. I love her to bits for always being there. She gives me constant love and support. I know I can be scary sometimes. But she accepts me for my flaws. She encourages me to work on myself: morally, spiritually, and socially. I am trying.

I miss being excited about the endless possibilities of life.

With Minhchau, we talked about our families, our heritage, our goals, and our relationships. We talked about where we came from. We focused on our parents: their past, their current lives, their happiness, their endless expectations. Their unconditional love. We talked about what we have accomplished and where we want to be in life. We acknowledged our inspiration. We reminded ourselves of why we work so hard. We reflected on our personal growth. How much we have matured. We pondered over the challenges to come. They are unknown. They are scary. We tried to imagined the future, but couldn't.

Every time we meet for a chat, she gives me a renewed sense of life. I love it.

Some relationships are just that beautiful. I am utterly grateful to have these two women in my life. I cannot thank them enough for their endless love.

15 February 2012

2.0 - Lyrical Mornings

0 comments Posted by nanabuuui at 1:01 PM

"Never want to stand upon myself
Never want to get in the way… I said it
I don't know what the plan is,
But you can share with me.
'Cause I'll be listening here to everything you say
I won't turn away and I'll listen, open up my heart
and I must say that I love you

Ooooh la love, I've fallen in love and it's better this time than ever before
Ooooh la love, I've fallen in love and it's better this time than I've ever known"

Foster the People - I Would Do Anything For You

I've been stuck on this song for the past few days. I'll attribute my fascination to the vinyl record I play every weekend. (Thanks bf! I'm totally stealing it from you.) I absolutely love the lyrics. Each line is filled with such sweet sentiments. Confessions of undying devotion and love.

Please excuse my slightly sappy phase. I much prefer it to the emo/depressing episode I have recently endured. Let's hope this keeps up for a while. I could use this change.

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